Macaroni-Salad

Dear Art Thief who keeps visiting my page (You know who you are),

PISS OFF!

I still have my eye on you and your thieving little sticky fingers and I'm not going away until you go clean!




The actual Journal:

My friend (Inspiration for the character, Wade) just came up with Wade emoticons!

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He's so awesome. XD


(Yes, I'm bored!)

((DA broke some of them...had to add spaces))

I already failed at the NaNoWriMo stuff. I was just too busy and too distracted; not to mention the great deal of research and decision making that has to be put into the novel I want to write. I'm thinking of shifting things away from religious stuff and into more of fantasy realm crap. More variety that way, and more variable conflicts.

Still in the works and I'm still taking Notes on it.

I apologize to my LHHTP fans for not posting as often as I should. I've been easily distracted, and I seem to have misplaced my notes somewhere on the computer. I don't remember what I named the file, so I have to go through all my text documents (C drive and F drive) to find them. And I have a lot of text documents for various notes. =__=;;;

I'm thinking of doing a few comic strips with Novus and Dorobo in them. Would you guys be at all interested in seeing more art of those two? At the moment, they're my absolute favorite original characters!

Eh...ran outta stuff to say....back to work!!

Apparently it's National Novel Writing Month and I'm already 4 days behind cause of Gaia and Neopets. XD

I'm thinking of writing something about Novus...but MAN it's gonna take a LOT of research to write about him. XD

No way in hell am I making it to 50k words though. Considering the amount of research I'd have to do partway into it.

(Lot of religion stuff, and NOT just from one source!)

Wow....I just LOVE people sometimes.

I bitch at user for jumping accounts repeatedly....

They bitch at me for being cold and unfeeling because said account they last left had some sort of emotional ties between them and a now dead celebrity.

I bitch at them back that the past is in the past and they shouldn't be so negative about it for so long, even though the original reason I started bitching at them was TOTALLY unrelated to that.

They bitch about me bitching so their followers can bitch at me about bitching.

I TRY to bitch back and make my bitching justified, only for the bitch to block me.

Therefore, I use a second account (this one) to bitch back at her and try to lecture her nicely, though I'm going to be bitchy for the bitch calling me out and making me look like a TOTAL bitch even thought the original bitch-out was about something as simple as jumping around accounts more often than one changes taste in soda preference.

Again, I am bitched at back and blocked again, even though I tried my absolute best to make things somewhat better and to give a reality check.

Said bitch bitches again and calls me out so people can continue to bitch at me while I cannot reply because the bitch blocked me, therefore I cannot reply to the comments they leave on my comments which never (surprisingly) gets removed, thus causing more and more bitchiness, even when it is no longer relevant.

Now, about a month later, user is BACK on the account I original bitched on for jumping around accounts and is saying she has returned and shall continue to remember the said dead celebrity on a happier note, thus following my advice and had obviously calmed down and thought things through.

Victory for me for getting through to her.

Where's my apology?

Why am I not unblocked?

WTF?


Man....life's a bitch.


And if you, said user, are gonna bitch at me for saying bitch so much...read it through one more time when you're in a better mood.

It's half rant, half humor.

LAUGH!

I kept writing bitch after a while when I noticed I was accidentally writing it to much, so I started doing it on purpose.

And seriously...I demand an apology and would like to be unblocked. What YOU did was completely unfair.

Just because I don't like you jumping around on various accounts does NOT mean I don't like your are and don't wanna comment on it.

Warning: Long Journal, primarily as a RE: to a certain user

Sometimes I wonder why some people act the way they do on the internet and why they don't try to better themselves. I've come across a lot of people in the many years I've been a regular to the internet, especially DA. And it's amazing how many people thrive on drama. If something goes just a tiny bit wrong, they make a big deal about it for a long ass time, and sometimes they'll 'leave DA foreverz' and make a new account to avoid drama based on their old account.

Now, I've left an account twice in the past, but each has its good reasons. Andrews-Angel was left because the name was shit and I was still very new to the net. I let everyone know that I was moving so there wouldn't be confusion. Those who truly watched me at the first account watched me on the next one from then on. Then, in winter of 2006, I decided there was just way too much drama in the second account, primarily between myself and a certain individual who still causes a lot of drama from time to time and I still find it hard to talk tough too. I discovered that I still knew the password to my elemente account from a long time ago when I was going to start a project named "Elemente" and decided to just start anew there instead of making yet another account.

Now, I have used that account since the beginning of '07 and I plan to keep that account for as long as I'm still interested in DA in order to post my fan works. This account was created solely for the purpose of posting my originals since they're normally downright ignored on my other account.

I have only 2 accounts active, and my previous ones were left for valid reasons.

Now...there are some people who have an account for every occasion, be it a phase they're going through or a fandom they're currently obsessing over. Now, I don't know about all you, but after the third account change within the course of a year, it gets pretty annoying to have to add yet another account to your watch list in order to continue appreciating a person's work, and having to go through and remove the old account to prevent clutter, only for you to have to re-watch that account again just a short time later, and to un-watch the old account, and the cycle just continues until you don't even know which account is truly active anymore and you just want it to stop.

Recently I had a bit of a shuffle with one individual who had changed accounts yet AGAIN and it was the point where I pretty much had had enough of having to follow them around and I let them know it. I appreciate artists whom are able to work with a large variety of styles with practice. if I didn't I wouldn't watch them. What I could do with out is the wide variety of drama that seems to go along with it.

Be it drama about people making pairings you don't like in that certain fandom, drama about people pointing out that that person's character is CLEARLY a mary-sue and needs a little work to prevent from being such, or drama based on a person who did professional and official work in said fandom passing away many months before and yet they're sobbing up a storm, acting like it had happened just yesterday, tarnishing the memories by crying about it, rather than honoring the memories by being strong about the passing after so much time had gone by.

I know how much it hurts to lose someone, trust me. I was friends with this very nice and sweet elderly couple a long time ago when I still lived in Washington. The older man would make a siren-like sound when he saw me racing on my bike, and his wife would invite me over for some snacks while we'd talk about their days. They were like a third pair of Grandparents to me, always watching out for me and keeping me company in a neighborhood where nobody liked me.

Now, at the time, I didn't know it, but they were both fighting cancer. During the winter, when I couldn't use my bike to visit them, both of them passed away. Broke my heart when I found out. It hurt every time I'd have to pass their house. But over a few months, I got over the death and continued to race by the house, remembering the old man making the siren sound very well and even smiling about the memory, as well as the days where I was almost late getting home talking with the elderly lady about the bullies in school and the crazy teachers I had to put up with. It hurt at first, but instead of tarnishing the memory by being depressed about it, I honored the memories by remembering them for the wonderful people they were and continued on with my life happily. This happened to me when I was only in the 5th grade. I still miss those people, but I don't cry about it.

So to a certain individual out there--don't say I don't know what it's like to lose someone unless you double check your facts. I know what it's like. It hurts, but it's no excuse for you to throw away the things that person may have inspired you to do.

But I guess that's still more than enough grounds to tear down all your precious works, 'shut down' one account and move on to another with a whole new fandom and name. What's the point? You're still there, aren't you? Why move? It only causes mass confusion and annoyance to certain people.

The drama doesn't even stop there though. Even still with that new account, there is still something that has to inspire a tear-filled journal. This is stuff I expect to see from maybe a 14-year-old that still doesn't understand that the internet isn't the place you go to for everything that goes wrong in your life, unless you're the person who had people who only give you a pat on your back, saying 'it's okay' over and over, and gives you a virtual cookie to make you feel better, rather than having people who have been to the real world and back, giving advice on how that person can better themselves and be stronger then next time something happens. I think the only place where that's common enough to be okay is on Livejournal, which is why I left.

Shit happens. Simple as that. A LOT of shit happens in my life, but I don't make a journal about everything that happens. Not everyone needs to know that some asshole stole my bike seat, or how I nearly passed out in the 90-degree weather trying to find a job. Some things not everyone needs to get a journal update about. Heck, I hardly update my journal at all! I wait until something big is happening or coming up to do that. I don't need to tell the world what happened every time I'm upset about something. I'd feel like I'm burdening my friends with my problems I should be dealing with myself.

Then again, I know how to deal with the bullshit that is reality. I like the occasional pat on the back from my friends, but I don't need it in order to survive. That I need to learn on my own. There was a time where the internet wasn't as free and open as it is now folks. You couldn't always talk about people from around the world about your problems. You had to deal with them yourself. It shouldn't be that hard to do now!

I think I'd said enough for now. If I get anymore shit, I'll just have to add to the journal, though I really doubt it's going to be read the whole way through. And if it is, it's only going to be misread and misinterpreted, and once again ladies and gentlemen, I will be labeled as the heartless bitch who apparently doesn't know what it's like to deal with harsh things.

I'll keep this journal up until until it's seen by the intended audience, or until I get bored and sick of it stretching my page.

Good day.